crimson and clover

(hello, i'm alive, i'm in recovery - at home on bedrest - i'm still not exactly a person but here's to getting there)

admitedly, six fics is a rather short masterlist but the time was brief and transient and I personally still have at least one in progress, so that's. something.
( list list list )


If I've missed anything, let me know! If you want to keep playing, go ahead!

+ this post is brought to you by my life is super stressful and vaguely worrying rn and i have no idea what to do really other than write nonsense, life as a poet is not financially lucrative but is a whole load of fun, the London production of In The Heights was awesome and lol even i don't know what my fandoms are anymore!

instead of by fandom i'm listing these by who they're for bc it's easier for me to make sense of, sorry

for myself

float
in the heights
teen, nina/vanessa
insp: pre-stanford / "i hear that's how the Europeans say goodbye"


for kwritten (never say i am not generous and generally awesome, bc clearly i am)

minuets
hamilton
teen, angelica/burr
insp: people are stopped mid fight / or mid love, faces close & the brain / a fuzzy blank, some fall in love / like this, or don’t.

canonise
the raven cycle
gen, ronan
insp: people with dark souls have nothing but dark dreams. people with really dark souls do nothing but dream.

defy other godhood
the raven cycle/the foxhole court x-over
teen, fem!ronan/renee
insp: we were born sick, you heard them say it
my church offers no absolutes

an interlude
the foxhole court
gen, renee + andrew
insp: smoking kills, you know

need you to glow
the 100
nc-17, raven/bellamy
insp: I am tired of having hands
she said
I want wings—

But what will you do without your hands
to be human?

I am tired of human
she said
I want to live on the sun—


for fluffyfrolicker

fire, fire
doctor who
teen, river/tardis(/eleven)
insp: Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me


for lynzie914

and i felt something that is in me change
the vampire diaries
mature, elena-centric (elena/caroline, elena/tyler, elena/matt, elena + jeremy)
insp: the world is too busy crumbling to pieces to pay attention to a seventeen year old girl
a/n: pre-series, warnings for grief, death mention and suicidal thoughts


for delacourtings

new religion
the raven cycle
gen, blue/gansey
insp: the most painful state of being is remembering the future, particularly the one you’ll never have.


+ things on the to-do: herione bb which is underway and slightly out of control; dark!stargirls verse rose/caroline which is also underway; kate bishop and the wonders of the club scene for ladymercury_10 which i also need like breathing and will eventually write? in theory anyway? some lion babe rpf for vergoldung bc we all need it in our lives, i just need the incentive (hint hint?); get my life in order, probably

me: creates ficathon
me: tries to fill everything at said ficathon

so, round up.

antlers
doctor who, amy pond
teen
insp: the girl with antlers, for ladymercury_10

( why yes, i am a queen )





I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
tvd, caroline/klaus
mature
insp: midas is king and he holds me so tight, turns me to gold in the sunlight for lynzie914

( who is the lamb and who is the knife? )





be healed
biblical mythology, judas/mary magdalene(/jesus)
pg-13
insp: and since he bids me seek his face, believe his word and trust his grace, I'll cast on him my every care for kwritten

( lord, i am not worthy to receive you )





go on and light a cigarette
gossip girl, blair/vanessa
mature/explicit
insp: b & v that one sunny sunday morning when the weather was cold but it was warm under the sheets and that's as close to god as it gets for fluffyfrolicker

( let's cause a little trouble )

title: an abundance of...
summary: rory/paris/jess, makeouts + literary criticisms (a 20something roomates au)
rating: mature not-quite explicit because I couldn't be bothered writing porn

gilmore girls fic? lol wut?

this is kwritten and fluffyfrolicker's fault also doris is doing a ficathon go prompt me buffy/tara and/or cordelia



( nerds in comfort or love or SOMETHING )

continuation of the ficathon fics!

swan song
btvs
dawn
teen

(for lynzie914 they gave you life, and in return you gave them hell)


( the seams of myself undone are more than the whole of you )




these are your thorns
tvd/to
rebekah/klaus(/stefan)
mature/explicit (bloodplay, originalcest, threesomes, murder and other shenanigans)


(for lynzie914 hey sister, do you still believe in love i wonder?)

( bite your name into my back like you believe i'm yours )




tread the sky
btvs
dawn
pg

(for kwritten at a totally different ficathon, i think; So I perversely circle the late stars, drowsier and drowsier, sleepily longing for something.)


( stars when you shine, you know how i feel )

Still here, not here. Kinda equal measure. Not writing/writing everything, just not round here, sorry. (I love you)

February is the worst month. Meeting a new psychologist soon, I think it's a good thing.

Sorry this is stunted, I'm just mostly in a monosylabic place. Other hand, things are pretty again. I made some stuff, thought you guys might like them.( things have changed for me, but that's okay )*hugs for everyone*

This fic is alternately called I missed Kelsey's birthday because I was at a funeral and everything sucks and I'm not really here I'm trying to get my shit together but here's Dawn/Amy/Clara angst for kwritten because I'm trash

also i may or may not do the whole meme thing from way back when, once I get back on my feet I'm sorry i just can't be around right now

title: sweetheart, i'm not bitter
rating: teen?
summary: There's no coffee left

-sidenote: do NOT read this whilst listening to Panic! At The Disco's She Had The World unless you want to have a total fucking mental breakdown

( i'm sure it didn't ruin her, just made her more interesting )

YO, the winners for challenge 28 are up at slayerstillness and guess who got a thing or two out of the dealings?
( always leave 'em clicking for more )